"The journey of a thousand miles........"

I know that it is time for me to takes some steps to a healthier life. Not only do I need to increase my physical activity, but I also need to increase and maintain my spiritual health. I sometimes get lazy and unmotivated. I have to keep my eye on the prize and focus in on my goal. My ultimate goal is not to be skinny, but slimmer and healthier and to be the Christian my son and family can be proud of. Most importantly, I want to be someone I can be proud of. It take alot for me to open up about this issue because of my experience as a child and how my family views beauty. I am not asking anyone for help, just prayers. I have struggled with this issue since forever! Everyone will try to offer all types of advice and suggestions. How about just support. I hate to feel like I am under a microscope which is another reason I do not ask for help or rely on others. Bottom line to this message: I know I need to make a change in my life and I pray that my spiritual will assist me in my physical.